Hey hey 🙂 How are y’all doing? I’m having a fun time up in yorkshire (north of the uk for those of you unfamiliar with it). I’m up here visiting my aunt and cousin who I haven’t seen for 2 years!! I was in hospital for most of last year and refused to have family visitors so they actually haven’t seen me since before my ED began. Its such a weirs feeling seeing family and knowing that the hardly recognise you 😦 If your wondering why I look so different even though I’m almost weight restored its because I used to be a top rower. So I was very bulky and muscular, a far cry from what I look like now. Its make me sad to know that I threw away so much but achieved so little 😦 anyway, enough of the depressing stuff and on to something more uplifting… The title of this post.
Basically, I texted my friend yesterday to tell him I going to yorkshire this weekend and when he replied I expected to be met with a letter of farewell (he’s cool like that) but instead I received the lovely news that I’m going to “turn into a yorkshire pudding” – isn’t he cute haha. I love the way he treats me like a normal person. (For those of you who don’t know what a yorkshire pudding is, its a cup shaped crispy dough made from baked pancake batter). He really cheered me up. Do you ever find that a single comment from a friend makes you feel better ?
Won’t be able to post many eats for the next couple of days as the fam might think its a bit weird to take photos of food lol. But from my lunch today I have a couple ( apologies for the bad quality. I had to take them with my crappy blackberry camera waaaa).
Sushi FTW 🙂
My Yummy Fruit Salad
Upside-Down Cake Anyone?
Thankyou for reading – feel free to comment.
Oh I almost forgot, I have one last thing to say. Head on over to Katie’s blog. Delicious and healthy recipes – what more could you want !!
Hey Guys, how are you all ?
I’m just moving my blog from blogspot to wordpress. If you want to read more about my past then you can find it at http://www.morningtreats.blogspot.com, I’ve really come a long way since then. I haven’t got the time to tell you all about it but I’ll give you a brief overview. (I apologize for the long post in advance). Back in February (when I was last posting) I was really not in a good place. Reading my old posts makes me sad, thinking about how much I was lying to myself. I was dangerously underweight, about BMI 14-15. I even lied about my weight, making up that the scales were wrong and I pretending was actually fine. Since then, I’ve gained over 10kg (22lbs) and I’m doing a lot better. I no longer need to be watched at meals (not for a long time), nor do I weigh all my food. I do still count calories and I’m working towards intuitive eating but I’m not so obsessive. If I’m offered a bit of cookie at school, I’ll eat it and forget about it. Not factor it in and way overestimate it as I would’ve done. I’m sad to admit I got a lot worse before I turned to corner. I narrowly avoided hospital but I’m embarrassed to say that was only due to water-loading. Once I started to gain weight properly life began to get a lot better. I was more involved in conversations; people began to include me because they liked me and not because they pitied me. In May-June I took my GCSE exams and whilst I was extremely stressed and lost a little weight I generally completed them in good spirits, and went on to have the most amazing summer.
During the summer I went to Australia with my dad and then my friend Grace and I went to France where we ate cakes and ice cream and generally acted like teenagers. I was the happiest I’d been in as long as I can remember. During the summer I gained the last 3kg that I needed to reach maintenance, something which I had been reluctant to do for the past month or so (I basically maintained at about 3kg below my goal for a few weeks). I got to my maintenance about 6 weeks ago and started school. Everything was going great; people said I looked fab, I received the most compliments I’ve ever received. But unfortunately it was not to last. A new girl at school who was developing an eating disorder came to me to ask for help. Unfortunately in doing so she tempted the anorexia that had been lying vaguely dormant for the past few weeks. It really hit me hard, scarily hard. I stopped eating, my intake dropped to below 100 calories a day and I began compulsively exercising again. In the space of 2 weeks I’d lost over 4kg and my treatment team were making arrangement for me to be admitted ASAP. Luckily, I managed once again to turn it around just on the brink of another admission. I’m currently gaining back the weight I’d lost but I seem to be stuck. I’m finding it hard to break the 2000 calorie mark, and for the past 2 weeks I’ve been maintaining my weight. My treatment team are anxious for me to get back to where I was before my mini relapse and are pushing me to gain faster. I decided to start blogging again because I think I need to support and I enjoy the social side of it. I won’t be posting my eats today as my camera is out of battery and I can’t find the charger but I will be doing so very soon – so look out!
Thanks for reading – Just some holiday snaps to show you 😛
Just casually eating an oyster 🙂